Sometimes I wonder if I were in some sort of bizarre accident and forgot everything I loved... buried memories... I suppose that is a normal aspect of aging... maybe... but as my agreement with my former employer came to a complete end... I seem to be remembering people and events I had temporarily forgot... I can barely remember people's names involved in some really happy times... it's really weird. Who blocks happy memories??? It's weird like being attacked by a Harry Potter style Dementor. Who runs away from a time when they are happy? I don't think I realized that until recently? I suppose it's one of those self destructive tendencies OTHER people have! How strange.